Mapping out sweet love madness
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“there are a 100.000 kinds of love
water out of the same fountain
cannot be both bitter and sweet”
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Standing at the gates
Of heaven or hell
All the same
Only direction counts
In or out,
In / Out
All leading in the same place
To enter
Let all, all, all
Attachments go.
Still I hang in between
This fine line is our reality
The one we trap one another in
Do I need your help to break through,
Or I just want to share this with you?
This beautiful game that needs two
At least two to stand together
For the sake of joy sharing
And discovery
Come in so you can take me out
How does this sound for a romantically
Formulated request for a meeting?
A date in this soul universe
Where 2 get together in the name of 3
and the game starts,
all over again,
same rules
different outcome
hopefully.
as of today,
January 2&3.
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My friends are writing these poems
Rumi is one of the craziest I love
Pairing with Hafiz, a secret Lover to be
You know how they say about mystics
“most of their poems were lost in time”
I like them so much,
The found ones
That I say ‘what a pity’, wanting more
So they come visit me with their voices
I have no merit at all.
But I can use them all as a pretext
To stay more in your arms
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Every single one here
is about you
take them seriously
but don’t be scared
or do not fuel your ego
they’re valid just as well
for anybody else
and that is the best escape route
if you want to keep saying no, go!
I can use them as pretexts
To be held in your arms
Like right now
When I am alone
Or when I am talking
To you on the phone
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One for you
one for him
I can’t decide
And I do not want
to make up my mind
I want you all
One at a time
For the most selfish reason
I guess one can tell
To complete Me
To kill the Separation Fairy.
Though I might as well
Befriend her and
Then laugh at her face.
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How to stay strong in love
Besides working on it every day
Send messages
no expectations
for you to respond
if I really let this go
I know I’ll get love
In whatever shape
No matter what you do
I’ll get love from you anyway
Promise to me to recognize
Your loving and beauty
Behind ugliness or perfection
All invented out of
Sheer nothingness.
No matter what you do
I will see love in you.
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If not knowing anything
About God
Is no contradiction to
Loving,
Why would
The same thing
About you
Sound superficial?
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it’s all in my poems
no beginning and no formal end
my endless journey to meaning
take your time
to understand and want more
to join me in this treasure hunt
or not
will wait for your move
and if it never comes
that’s ok too
working to dis-attach the attachment
when you think it’s about you,
that is true
but it’s not your ego that it fuels
I see something much deeper
Where I’d like to meet you.
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my love poems
are about finding you
and about letting you go
the attachment of you
writing now to tell you for later
words are not necessary
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Love coexisting with fear
I want to live in that love
More often and openly
Without fearing your interpretations
And the borders you set
for love and in what relations
Loving you –and then
Greatest fear –
Your not letting yourself
lean close to me.
This is poetry
So undress me if you will
Take off all of my clothes
These metaphorical words
under which I am hiding
That’s what I am going to do
Love you completely too.
Take it or leave it
Fake it or go
This is a generous offer
I meant it when I said
I am letting you go.
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What to be doing
what can I be doing
and is doing the answer
or being
loving actually
may be more beneficial
than action oriented solutions
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Inspir-ation
God, I see,
Love = Eternal life
And I want more of it
Always, in principle,
And also just now.
I am hotter than ever
Like a piece of iron
For you to model me
In whatever image
You want to be
Now or never
Present or dead.
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Will you be the wildest of lovers tonight?
Will you finally say yes to
Hold me in that piece of heaven
I want to drag you in too.
Or all you do is talking about
Abstract love?
Would you be happy with half the truth
I am tired of it, God,
I want to understand
Everything you give
and I hold undisclosed
These words and images are failing me
What is your potion for healing tonight?
And when can I have a bigger portion?
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I want unity
Love is such a good pretext for it
[no more pretexts I said lately]
speaking love, I know you get it
you just misinterpret it and activate fear
or control tricks, alternatively.
That’s why I do this love talk to you
I’d use any tricks
To birth an understanding.
How is that for a measure of love?
The highest.
And you still stand aloof
Maybe thinking.
No, of course
you
can do
nothing for it.
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Waking up
in the middle of the night
With the best type of
Insomnia:
Joy
laughing out loud.
at my having to
do things
Did not say “I”
waking up
on purpose,
cause I ‘m not sure
it’s the ‘I’ I know
The “I” walked around most days.
God, interjection & reality,
I sure am glad
Joy is being so loud inside.
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‘God’ is one of my interjections lately.
Meaning,
I don’t really mean God.
I am playing with the words I guess,
It doesn’t mean anything – intended at least
It’s just another way of talking,
Expressing wonder, content, joy,
Whatever…
You know interjections!
When I am talking to God however
Lots of issues to figure our lately
Same ‘interjection’ comes out.
So I am working on figuring this one
Out:
God: Interjection AND reality
Just like the interjection
The Reality can express whatever
Because whatever is just another name
For anything/everything
And that’s exactly what God is,
the voice insists:
She/ He
I/ We.
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